It won't die

Deep inside I knew he was everything to me, but I didn't say anything
It was a dream in the real life
The one I would never want to wake up
I don't know what to do when reminds him makes me sad
I just can write
Write about all that used to matters to me once
but I wish I could do something more
My throat hurts
I won't cry again
I won't let this build up inside me
I know he wouldn't like it
The sadness used to make me happy
But I can't be happy when my sadness is about him
My dear love
Weep for you wash my soul but I still drown in it
I won't weep for the paths left alone
Should I give my heart a break?
They say it is the best thing to do
But I don't know if my wounds will stop crying for your grave
I still care about you
Even in death
If you still care don't ever let me know
I don't deserve anything from you
I am the one who let you die
Wish you had died in my arms
I would see your face one more time
I wonder what did you think in the very end
And I still hope my name was in your last whispers
I won't stop looking for you, you know
The dream of seeing you again won't die with you